I’m so dirty….

Struggling to understand what just happened to me the day after I was sexually assaulted is something that will stay with me forever.

 

I felt confused, hurt, angry, vulnerable, guilty and desperate.

I struggled to get my head around how I was feeling and what I was meant to do as a result of what I had been through.

As a result I felt dirty. I felt violated, sick and disgusting. Everything I did just felt dirty. Overtime that became my story – don’t do that, its dirty. Don’t receive pleasure – its dirty. I became obsessed with things being or feeling dirty.

This carried on for a number of years. I lived in denial not telling anyone what had happened and buried my head in the sand. I went travelling to escape, drank to numb the pain and controlled most aspects on my life.

 

I started to become a product of my thoughts!!!!

 

No matter what I did everything just felt dirty and wrong.. I felt violated, sick and disgusting. I blocked out pleasure. I blocked out fun, I played small and conformed to the norm. Overtime that became my story – don’t do that, its dirty. Don’t receive pleasure – its dirty. I became obsessed with things being or feeling dirty.

My story was on constant repeat!!

 

Feeling dirty became my life.

 

I had created a limiting belief that controlled all aspects of my life – my happiness, success, well being and abundance!

One day I realized I couldn’t carry on like this anymore. Something had to change.

I needed to stop living in the shadows and to finally let go of the past by releasing the emotions that were dragging me down.

I knew it wouldn’t be easy but I knew it needed to be done.

I had tired to get help before but it just never felt right – I felt weak, a failure and questioned my abilities, but I was wrong. Seeking help, support and guidance, took courage, set me free and made me realise that I wasn’t alone.

Once I made the choice to take control I made it my mission to get my life back, to take ownership of my choices and to not let my past define me.

I’m not saying it was easy, at times all I wanted to do was give up but I couldn’t. I owed it to myself to make my dreams big and push past the fear and doubt. I laughed, cried, screamed and let go. For the first time in a long time I felt free. My energy increased, my confidence blossomed and I finally felt in control.

I am now living a life I am proud on, I have an amazing husband and son and get to work on my business, which I love and that brings in an income and freedom that gives us all we need. I feel like the luckiest girl alive. But it doesn’t come down to luck. It comes down to belief; focus, hard work and an attitude that won’t let me fail.

 

You can have it all too.

 

Over the past 6 years I have seen first hand how our limiting beliefs and past experiences hold us back from success. Unbeknown to us, we allow these experiences to control our thoughts and actions while blocking opportunities and stopping us from believing in ourselves in a way we should!

Understanding what is our driving force will determine whether we reach our full potential or not.

When you become aware of the internal battle you are dealing with daily you start to gain clarity, everything starts to makes sense and you have the choice to take back control and make the changes you need to make to break the cycle.

 

What limiting beliefs do you have?

What stories do you have on repeat that are no longer serving you?

 

Make today the day when you become aware, when you take a step back and see things clearly. Understand your patterns, your challenges and identify where they come from.

Then the magic happens….. You have knowledge, feedback, information to use to make the change you need to make, you get to break down barriers, reframe thoughts and direct your focus around from the doubt!!!!

Download my FREE Limiting Beliefs workbook and start to break down their barriers, understand your actions and take back full control. It is time to transform your mind from fear to freedom, change the songs on repeat and create the results you know you have within you……..

If you are ready to break old patterns and unproductive cycles so you can generate more results, money and success this is just for you.

Good luck

Love as Always

Emma xx